Wow.

Tonight was really intense. I realized a lot of things, that I've known, but really needed to acknowledge. I have not been the real Brittani for the past year. The real me is not this pessimistic, unhappy, unmotivated person that I have been. Not at all. This is the reason I haven't been able to do art regularly, and the reason for so many other things that I'm not going to go into.

But things are different now. I was forced to deal with a lot of heavy things tonight, on the edge of heartbreak. But I refuse to let this continue, and I refuse to do anything before it's too late again.