To-do list

In no particular order:

• Do the laundry
• Clean the room
• Take a shower
• Finish my drawing
• Try calling Alfred again
• Pack a little bit

Wow.

Tonight was really intense. I realized a lot of things, that I've known, but really needed to acknowledge. I have not been the real Brittani for the past year. The real me is not this pessimistic, unhappy, unmotivated person that I have been. Not at all. This is the reason I haven't been able to do art regularly, and the reason for so many other things that I'm not going to go into.

But things are different now. I was forced to deal with a lot of heavy things tonight, on the edge of heartbreak. But I refuse to let this continue, and I refuse to do anything before it's too late again.

Hello, Blogger.

Feeling so many different emotions right now that it's really hard to navigate through them. It's mainly nostalgia, I think. I messaged Britni tonight, and we finally got to talking again. I felt like I needed to be mad at her for some reason, but I really think it's just to mask the fact that I'm still hurt over a lot of things that happened with us. I really do miss her, and occasionally I miss the old days. I'm still a little goth girl at heart.

Oh, goodnight.